Things are going pretty well, badly.

I’m so sad all of the time and tired of being mad about everything.

my jealousy is completely outrageous, and i feel like no one even cares about me, at all.

I’m so tired of everything lately, nothing makes me happy anymore.

I’m always completely  miserable, no matter what, i don’t know what to do anymore but i am getting very sick of it.

I wish SOMETHING or SOMEONE could make me happy again.

i try so hard to not be upset about stupid things but i can’t even help it.

I’m not myself anymore, after all of the fighting and all of the dumb drama and horrible things i’ve been through, being used, being hurt, i lost myself somewhere inbetween all of it.

i’m hoping maybe if i’m happy again i can find myself, i’m hoping anyways.

There’s nothing i can do to change how i feel, someone just has to make me happy again, and hopefully things will change.

I’m sooo sick of crying and just sitting around being sad all of the time.

I try to vent to people because it makes me feel a little better, but i’m embarassed about half of the shit i am upset about.

As for you, i want you in my life.You have become such a big part of my life, i want to spend the rest of my life with you,and i’m hoping we can be together again, we just need to fix some things.I really do love you baby.And i always will,we will be together again, i want to marry you.I’m sorry for everything i have put you through, and i am going to try to be better so we can be together again.You have some things you need to work on to, but i really do love you, you showed me what love really is.And it makes me so happy you did. I’ll always be here for you baby.